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The Other Side of Life

Well greetings! This is my blog, obviously. I am going to use this to share pictures, stories, and day to day events that go on in my not so ordinary life. HA! I promise to keep you quite entertained. And in my promise to keep you entertained, here is a link to some of my friend's blogs. The ones that have blogs anyways.

BJ
Nena
Trey
Trey Again
Jen
Nate

Also in my promise to keep you entertained, I am an active member of a place called Dragonmount. I am an Aes Sedai of the Blue Ajah there. It is a a roll play oriented site, though I mainly stay on the Community boards because they are more layed back and a ton of fun. You can find me there at the White Tower. This site is based on my favorite books, the Wheel of Time series. You may here me talk about those a lot. Reading is a big hobby of mine. As you keep reading this page, you will learn a lot more about me. After all, I made a promise didn't I?

At last! Some of my pictures and stories. Enjoy!
My Gallery

My Stories

Here are some more links to awesome places.

Switchfoot
Homestar Runner
Wheel of Time

If you are bored, find excitement here. And also here.

If you like Lord of the Rings, go to these places.
There And Back Again
The One Ring

For some Laughs go to these places:
Move it man!
Whoohoo!
Cute Babies

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Sunday, April 10, 2005
MySpace

Okay..wow.  I haven't been on here in forever.  I've started to really get into this site called MySpace.  It is this extremely flashy blog site.  It's awesome.  Y'all should go check it out.  You can check out my page HERE   I will try and update this every once in awhile.  What I am going to do, is probably put my stories on here and excerpts of my novels.  I'll see how that goes.  So, at least you know where I've been lately.  The link you see above is also available down below to the left side where it says "My Stories."  Go there to read what's up in my daily happenings.  Until then...

Good Night New York!

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Monday, January 17, 2005
My Mountains Are Falling to the Sea

OK, so I was watching Joel O'steen on tv last night and he was talking about living a life of expectancy. There were many things he said that got me to start thinking about the way I've looked at different parts of my life recently. I do not think that I have been living with expectancy. Joel O'steen was talking about getting up at the start of every day and declairing in Christ "Thank you God for this day, I am expecting it to be a great day. I expect that You will make all of my crooked things in my life straight..." and such. I haven't been doing that. I've been walking through life lately with just a hope and wish, that I never really set it firmly in my mind that all I desire, all that I yearn for CAN and WILL happen. He was talking about the fact that God wants to be good to us, He wants us to have all these things, but we'll never have them if we don't live life expecting these things. When we don't expect it, we've already set the limit for ourselves. I don't want my life to be like that. I don't want my limits already set. I have to start tearing down that glass ceiling that I have placed myself under. It's time to have all the great things that God wants me to have.

I've been really depressed and doubtful lately about finishing college and getting married, finding my place in this world...among other things. In the midst of all of this I had forgotten that God already has it under His wing, He's already got it taken care of. I have to live life expecting that I will finish school, I am expecting that God will send me the right person to marry, and I have to expect that he will fix all of the crooked things in my life. How did I forget such a simple thing?

These past 14 days have opened my eyes to a lot that I have been fighting. All the sadness, the feeling out of place, not having many people to lean on...the feeling that the walls were closing in on me and that I'd never get to where I want to be. It's over with, and I am tired of dealing with it all.

God I'm expecting You to make all the crooked places in my life straight, I'm expecting You to fulfill Your promises to me as You said You will. I'm execting to finish school, get married, and find my place in this world. I'm expecting nothing but Your best for me in my life. I thank You Father for opening my ears and eyes to what I needed to do. Thank You for being You and for loving me. Thank you for Your grace and mercy. I know everything is already complete and I expect it to manifest in Your perfect timing. In Jesus' name. Amen.

I can't believe it took a Texas preacher, thousands of miles away to get me to see this. LOL...man am I thick. But then again, God uses people in the wierdest ways sometimes. That's why I love Him.

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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
A New Start

Well I registered for classes this evening; my spring semester is set.  It looks like it will be an easier semester.  I am taking two art classes, a children's literature class, and a math class.  Not a bad deal if I do say so myself.  Hopefully it will mean a lot less stress for me. 

I am expecting this year to be a good year, a wonderful year.  I deserve it.  Last year was just horrible; one heartbreak after another, one letdown after another.  I am ready for some much needed and long overdue blessings.  I'm going to get good grades, have a fun year, and God-willing meet a decent guy this time. lol  
A new year full of new and wonderful things...that is what I expect.

Well I don't have much else to say.  I have class tomorrow afternoon, it's my painting class.  It should go well.  So I am off to bed. 

Peace, Luv, and Bullet-proof Marshmallows!

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Saturday, December 18, 2004
Everywhere I Turn I Find Your Saving Grace

Well Yesterday was just a bad day.  If I could do it all over and change what happened, I would.  Brian came over and we had a long talk...well he talked, I mainly listened.  He told be that basically, it's not going to work out, we're two different people, and I am too good of a girl for him.  All I could think was WHAT?!  WHERE IS THIS COMING FROM?!  I wish he would have let me make that decision for myself.  I'm a big girl and I am perfectly able to make my own decisions.  But, I am not going to beg him to be with me.  I really liked him, a lot.  He said we're still going to talk and hang out an all.  I will have to think about that though.  I would be wasting my time wouldn't I?  I don't know.  I will just see what happens.  I guess it's better to have him as a friend than not having him at all.  Why doesn't he want me though?

So, I guess God has someone different in mind for me, because once again, this didn't work out.  I want to know where this guy is, who he is, and when we will find each other.  It's all leaving me heartbroken and I'm becoming restless.  I am ready to settle down and have my own life, my own family.  When can I finally have my dream?  I'm about ready to give up, I'm tired of being heartbroken, continually let down, and I never seem to be good enough for someone.  I can't help but ask if there's something wrong with me.  Everyone tells me how beautiful I am, how sweet, and how kind, but why don't guys seem to see that in me?  Perhaps it's just because they weren't the one for me.  I don't know...I don't know anything right now. 

I'm sitting here listening to "The Potter's Hand" right now...I'm still upset.  This song just speaks to me.  I was talking to Mrs. Brenda at work today...Mama Brenda as I call her.  She is my only Christian friend at work that I can really talk to.  I was telling her how I am just ready to go...to go and meet Jesus.  I'd give everything I have to go and be with Him.  I'm sick of this world, I don't belong here, and there is nothing but evil, heartbreak, heartache, and just plain crap in this world.  I grieve everyday for this world and the people in it. 

But onto brighter things...God DOES have someone special for me set aside.  I know he will be worth all of this pain.  I know he will be worth the wait.  I know he will see all of the qualities in me that my friends see.  I know he will love me despite myself lol.  I know that he will not let me go, even when things get tough, he will stick by me.  He will love me as God loves me, see me as God sees me.  He will be everything that I have hoped for and dreamed about.  In that thought I find some level of comfort, though I will never be fully complete until I find him; until I am with him.  God can be enough though, for now He has to be...He's all I have.  He's the only reason I'm still in once piece, He's the reason I'm not going crazy.  I love Him and without Him I'd crumble into thousands of pieces. 

God send me the man you've prepared for me.  And until the day we meet, prepare me.  I want to be everything You have destined me to be.  I know we will meet in Your perfect timing, so help me to trust in You, help me to keep my faith and wait until that moment.  I know I can do it with You holding my hand.  Help me. 

I don't know what I would do without my friends...Jen and Nena, they've helped me through this repeatedly.  Especially Nena, she's an angel and such an encouragement to me.  She helped me through the BJ thing, then the Nathan thing...I wish Jen was here...I want to talk to her, I need to.  She's in Atlanta though.  They both have been my "crutches," they've helped me stay focused on the bigger picture.  Thanks y'all.  I love you both.  I pray that God blesses you as you both have blessed me.  I haven't been the greatest of a friend to you two at times and I regret it all, and if could change it I would, but you both have managed to stick by me and love me anyway.  Thank you doesn't seem good enough, but thank you anyway. 

Well thanks for sitting and listening to me pour my heart out.  I feel better.  I'm off to talk to God for awhile. 

Peace, Love, and Bullet-Proof Marshmallows,

-Steph

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004
All I Have To Give

{Current Mood:  Contemplative}
{Current Music:  "Twenty Four" -Switchfoot}


ALL I HAVE TO GIVE


I will build an altar
And kneel to you in prayer
I need Your gentle hand to come down
And comfort me

I will write a song
And sing it to the world
I want everyone to feel what I feel
When You fill me up inside

In all the things that I could do for You
Somehow it never seems quite enough
You've done more for me than I could ever ask
And what do I have of worth to give back?

All I have is my life
All I have is my heart
Out of all I've ever owned
All I have to give to You
Is love...
All I have is a song
All I have is a prayer
All I have to give to You
Is praise...

I will dance for You my King
And I will shout Glory to Your name
Lifting my eyes to You
I want to see Your face

I guess this is enough
You say it's all You want
But I guess my humble mind could never grasp
Just how much this means to You
Because out of everything I have that I could give
All I have that's worth anything at all is...

My life...my heart

A song and a prayer
Out of everything I have
All I have to give to You...
Is my love...
My love, my love, my love...Jesus...








This is just a little song a wrote a little bit ago...I was just thinking about some things, and sometimes the things I do, such as pray and just telling God how much I love Him, it all never seems to be quite good enough for all of the wonderful and amazing things that He's done for me.  But that is really all He wants from us; is just our love and praise.  I know how much my heart grieves for the world, learning about just how much evil lurks around every dark corner, and how so many people hate God for things that God had nothing to do with, they deny Him without ever knowing Him, and they mock Him.  I've witnessed these things just within my town, the job I work at and places I've gone.  You hear things, you see things...these things break my heart.  I cried the other night because I couldn't understand how Christmas went from the celebration of Christ's miraculous and glorious birth, to being a holiday about "take take take" and "I want want want."  I watched on the news the other night, heard the people talk about a town that wanted a Christmas tree taken out of a court house because it had "religious meaning" or some stupid crap like that.  People aren't allowed to say "merry Christmas" anymore...it's "happy hollidays" now.  People are so hateful this time of year.  What happened to this world?  What happened to America?  Why have we all of a sudden become so tollerant of evil and corruption?  We are so bent on accepting what we know is wrong because we don't want to offend anyone... we end up bending, breaking and then finally forgetting our own standards.  This has to stop.  We are letting the devil take control one step at a time, and we don't even know it.  People make fun of Christian's because we aren't "cool enough", "our beliefs are so outdated", or my personal favorite "it's the 21st century, society has changed."  Well I am sorry my friends, society may have changed, but God's word doesn't.  God's word is law and you can choose to obey it or spite it, but even if you turn your back on Him, you still have to answer for your actions in the end.  With actions come consequences.  Just like in the real world, you break a law, such as speeding, or murder...there is a price to pay.  Same way with God, you will have consequences to pay for your actions.  You choose to mock Him, deny Him, and push Him out of this world, prepare to face Him.  I'm not trying to preach to you to scare you, that is just the way it is, it's the truth, and I am not going to sugar-coat the truth for you.  If you don't believe me, read it from God Himself...in the Bible.  There is a better life in God, a life of freedom, purity, and most imortantly, true love.  God loves you more than anyone ever could, and it breaks His heart to witness all these things.  How would you feel if your child all of a sudden turned his or her back on you and tried to push everything that had anything to do with you, out of his or her life?  You would feel pretty horrible right?  Well multiply that ten times over and I think I can pretty much guarentee you that is how God feels.  Not a very nice thought is it?  So stop hating Him, mocking Him and His children, stop polluting His world with evil.  Stop giving the devil a step up and stop letting him control you.  Give God a chance, all He wants is for you to love Him, He doesn't ask for much.  In return for your love, trust, and a place in your heart...he will give You eternal life with Him in Heaven.  Not a bad deal.  Do you know anyone else that would do that for you?  Do you know anyone else who would give their life in exchange for yours, for your sins, bleeding and dying, nailed to a cross so that you could live a life of forgiveness and mercy?  I don't know anyone that would do that.   I say all of this because I care for you...yes I do...as a child of God I care for all my siblings in Christ.  Just give Him a chance, what have you got to lose?  I dare you.

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